0reblog Unsure

I didn’t want it to happen. But it did and it’s not my fault. I’m surrounded by people who love and care about me and they all proved how much they care by just being there when I was upset and miserable over it. You will always be my first real love. Never forget that I will always love you and be there for you no matter how awkward things are now. This is life and I had to learn it the hard way. I’m not gonna sit and cry anymore, I don’t need to cut or kill myself. I’m strong and I realize that I’m going to be okay because crying gets me nowhere. It’s not easy and yeah I have my bad days where I think about all the memories. But I will always cherish them. Goodnight

0reblog Nightmare.

My worst fear was not being able to call you mine. I keep telling everyone that I’m fine. But I’m not, I’m not fine one little bit and I don’t think I will be for a long time. My heart is broken and I’m feeling so empty….so fucking empty. Hoping this was all a dream but it’s not. I’m sick, I feel like I’m going to vomit whenever I think about it. This is the worst pain I’ve ever felt in a very long time. Before I met you, you took all those bad feelings away and now they’re back…I didn’t want them back. I don’t want to have to talk like we barely know each other. Or in short words and dots after dots of periods. I don’t want us to fade away when you gave me so much to remember. I wish I could fix how you feel but I can’t. I can’t and that’s what hurts the most. Because all I do in life is try to make people happy and do whatever I can so they stay happy and since I’ve tried and nothing still worked…I failed you. I let you down, I hurt you, I made you feel pain. The only think I don’t understand is why I haven’t wanted to cut myself yet I haven’t even felt that urge and I haven’t had one suicidal thought since it happened and I’m scared that one day it’s all gonna hit me and I’m going to lose sense of reality and myself and end up right back to where I started from. This is horrible, I’m horrible. I’m a shitty fucking person who loses everything. I guess I deserve it for being so fucking shitty. I’m ugly, I’m worthless, I can’t even make you stay because every dream you had was a bad one that involved me. A month ago everything was fine, or so I thought. Now I can’t wear your shirts anymore without crying, I don’t wanna take your necklace off, I don’t wanna get rid of all the memories and the pictures and the videos…oh my god I’m losing my fucking mind !





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you will keep your mouth shut every time fat women are used as the punchline of a joke and are denied access to clothing brands and healthcare and are treated as disgusting but someone says “skinny shaming isn’t on the same level” and you’re up in arms because “stop making people feel bad for their bodies, thin women don’t DESERVE to be shamed!!!” (not like fat women, right??? everyone sees you, fuck you)

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0reblog Me

It’s weird because if I was dealing with the situation I’m in now three years ago the old me would’ve been losing my mind. I would’ve been screaming, crying, breaking things or cutting. But now that I’ve grown up I’ve done my best to keep control of myself because I know I’m stronger than that. Now, I don’t cry as easily, I don’t break things, I certainly don’t cut anymore and I’m proud of myself for that. But it’s really not that easy I feel like I’m seriously about to shut down. I don’t like what I’m going through right now. It’s the hardest thing in the world. Nobody knows because I don’t want anyone to know. I’m trying to stay positive but it’s as if everything is changing. It’s not the same and that’s what hurts the most. I just need hope and a miracle that things will stay the same and okay. I’m not giving up


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203050reblog Do not look at yourself with disgust, you are a gift to this earth. You are beautiful, you are a light, an energy, an essence. You are nature herself.Heidi Pickett (via cosmofilius)

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